Things have not gone well so far folks.
Summer has ended and has entered Autumn (by the way, my favourite season of the year) but my life has taken a sudden dark turn. I can’t disclose too much information but I feel like I have betrayed a friend at work. Can’t disclose any details,…. but I feel like I might be (below).
I will just have to wait and see this coming week.
Other than that, in my pursuit of love (or lack of), my mind decided ‘no’ (my heart said ‘yes’). Word has it the guy that I have been crushing for a year is taken. It definitely defined the boundary (confirmation that he is indeed untouchable). Part of me is relieved, part of me is actually very sad. I’ve been crushing a not-single guy for an entire year. I feel like a fool because how dare I be attracted to a guy that is about to get married?
It’s a punch in the face.
Worst still, his name is still popping up everywhere. I don’t know what that is about.
I haven’t had a good week and I feel like it’s going to get worse.
Until next time.
The daily ritual kicked off as soon as the alarm went off, I turned on the wifi on my phone and checked the notifications.
One of my friends had a facebook status expressing their devastation of Chester Bennington reported dead. The first time I saw it, I thought it was a hoax but when it got to three statuses of similar sentiment —It hit me.
It wasn’t a hoax …it was real. I am sad, very sad about this. His depression was well known, he had spoken about it t his troubled childhood and his depression in highschool. He as depressed and tt finally got to him, this time he couldn’t fight it this time.
I listened to Linkin Park in the early years of Highschool . My middle child sister was a massive fan. It rubbed off on me and through the influence of older siblings, you tend to form habits. Linkin Park was the shiz then, because the songs spoke to us.
Chester’s voice, got me through highschool.The way he sung lyrics of the songs moved me, you could hear his pain and that feeling in his vocals got me through the worse times in those years of my life.
He was my first rock celebrity crush, his geekiness and WOW that voice .
The world lost a precious soul with a precious voice.
I’m incredibly saddened by this. This is all I can say… that I’m incredibly sad about this.
I’m all choked up that I can’t even string coherent sentences and spell properly.